Find your own way.

I don't get it. It's so easy to write. It's so.. natural. I keep thinking I don't have the time, but to be honest, I do. I just need to plan better, sleep less? Read less, be less lazy.



I wish there was an easy way to write whilst walking. Don't say pen&paper - I won't be able to read my squiggles...



I need to nail down this routine thing. I need to get better at getting up in the morning. I need to find a way to stop getting ill all the time.



So far this morning two people have said I don't look well. But I can't take another day off work; sick days are a bit of a no-no in the real world, if I've understood it all right. Sure, if I'm ill I should stay home. Both to get myself better and to make sure no one else catches whatever lurgy I've got. But when you're ill this much? Ridiculous. Clearly, I need a job where I can work from home.



Trip back to the doctor's is probably a good idea. But they'll just tell me to get more fresh air and exercise. Blahblahblah.



Anyway. Oh, and yes. I'm writing this from work. Lunch break, I think it's called...



Wow, it turned into another moan. Sorry!

Moanmoanmoan.

I'm so bored of being ill. Again and again and again. I know what you're gonna say - exercise and fresh air. Well, I walk about an hour and a half every day. Not exactly heavy exercise, I know, but it's more than I used to do.

I have also always been told this would help with my headaches. 'Pah!' is all I have to say to that! It's no better.

Might as well move really close to work and never walk anywhere or go outside or do anything healthy.


I AM going to work tomorrow.

Poorly, bus travels.

I'm ill again. Suddenly started feeling ill about mid day yesterday, thought I was going to be sick at work... So I went home. Was going to walk but couldn't face it so got on the bus. I was alright for the first bus. But on the second I was feeling worse so had to get off and be sick :( It was terribly embarrassing. Not a very busy area but there were a good few people around, all looking at me like I was drunk in the middle of the day? I was saying to Mike that if someone was being sick in the street in the middle of the day, obviously unwell and alone I would at least see if there was anything I could do to help. He didn't seem convinced I actually would... Would you? I'd like to think I would anyway!

So I went home and straight to bed. Slept all afternoon and all night. Am trying to stay up now, maybe I'll even do something constructive...

Not been sick since yesterday which is good. But decided to stay home today, still not feeling very good.

On the bus right before I got off a lady started talking to me. It started with something about York traffic being bad, but somehow she moved seamlessly onto job interviews, and why don't the adverts say there's a minimum height/driving licence required? If I understood her right she'd just been to an interview where they told her she was too short to waitress?? If I hadn't been forced to get off the bus I would've chatted more to her, cos that sounds shocking... Hopefully I misunderstood...


 We've started watching the Wire by the way - it's looking promising! Only seen 3 episodes so far bur I'm enjoying it... Have you seen it?













Right, I'm going to have a shower and try to eat something. And maybe do something productive...

xx