Dag 26 – Mina rädslor (my fears)

My biggest every day fear is spiders. I know that's stupid and girlish and lame, but that's how it is. We've always managed to live places with loads of spiders (apart from the Manchester pad - city centre location = no spiders). I'm much better now; I can be in the same room as even fairly big spiders so long as they're not on or too close to me. But occasionally we get visitors that I just can't stand the thought of being in the same room as.

And I know that they're more afraid of me than I am of them, and I know they can't hurt me, and I even know that there are a billion more in nooks and crannies, under the floor boards etc. But I don't care. I do think there's something to the theory that it's one of those primal fears, part of the collective subconscious Mr. Jung was so keen on having us believe in.

Spiders=scary and that's that.

Webs.

One frosty morning I'll take photos of some of the spider webs on my route to work. They're gorgeous in the morning sun.

I'll avoid taking pictures of the spiders though. Cos no one wants to see them!

Phobia cure.

I was in the staff room at work today, and by the sink were a set of keys. One of the keyrings was a spider in resin. I had to look both twice and three times before I was sure - because why on earth?! I asked my colleague if it was really a spider. She said yep, it's a way to 'top up' the cure of a previous phobia.

Ew ew ew. I think I'd rather be afraid.

Spiderfun.

Spider time has started. Already. Grr! Notes to self - do not leave anything on the floor. Empty bag out when I get home. Shake everything after picking it up/before using it.

...at least we won't still be living here when the big spiders come out to hunt in Sept/Oct time!